Talk:Leolivia/@comment-5601143-20121026133257

I feel for Leo seriously :( I used to fancy this guy named Brandon and he was in my ALC class. But the thing is, he tends to be really flirty. Like he sometimes flirted with me, then my friend Steph too! I tend to like guys who are either douchebags or manwhores :( But yeah people in our class would always say that him and my other friend Xhana (who is his best friend) should date and one day he even asked me himself if they would make a cute couple, and then later on he made out with her right in front of me :( That completely crushed me because I really liked him and ever since the 7th grade when I asked out a boy named Tim and he not only said no but he called me a fat, ugly bitch, I've always been really guarded with my heart and feelings toward boys. I'll always have memories of the cute times between me and Brandon, like when he comforted me when I was upset about my best friend Lydianny passing away, when he was trying to talk to me during class one time, but I couldn't hear him, so he had to whisper in my ear, when we goofed around on Photobooth together with some other classmates and our teacher or when we were in science one day and he decided to lay on top of my lab table and go to sleep whilst we were watching a movie.Oh my god, there was this one really good memory where we had to work on a project together so we went to the art room in our school to get some construction paper and when we left we cut through through the Foods class whilst it was going on. That was the day where I was wearing my favorite black mini skirt and gray v neck. What was good about that memory was that later on my friend Amanda told me that I did this thing where I moved my hair to the side and she told me that he got this huge smile on his face. But I never got the guts to tell him how I feel. I think that was a sign though because I don't really think I could take another diss by a guy. Oh my god, I just completely rambled, didn't I?? Point of that extremely long post is that I know how it feels to like one of your best friends but then get crushed because someone else came along and all your past insecurities came up :( I just felt so shitty about myself because my best friend Xhana is gorgeous and skinny and athletic and seeing Brandon kiss her absolutely broke me and made me feel like I would be good for no one, that no body would ever like me :(