Thread:Leoh4ever/@comment-4610698-20120730001926

okay, i wanna start off with the thing that i am a giant jerk. i have been there a couple times but didn't talk, have the feeling i put you in an awkward position, which i don't want to and i made you moody the very first day you were on............ i don't want that. but there is more.

i am confused...... i feel like something between us is missing... have i grew older, or what is it. i tried for more times to get behind that but i got reactions i could do nothing with.... like today, the first thing i started with was to ask if you still loved me and i got a sarcastic answer... i don't know what i can do to let this feeling go away. what is the part there is missing here? i am not really sure but i couldn't get a grip on it. everytime i tried something,,,,, it just didn't worked out the way i wanted.... was this the purpese or what? is it weird to ask if i need answers for that? i am not saying i wanna breakup or anything of that, (I'D RATHER NOT!) but i wanna work on what we had... badly!!!!! it is confusing and worse, even a bit upsetting me. and i don't want that..... ;( especially not to you. but it still is... jenny convinced me to not come not online anymore for some time so i think i could thank her..... if i may ask you, didn't you notice or was this for a reason???

i know this is not a sunflower message but i had to say it, i am so confused and you may call me the biggest jerk in the world right now and be as mad as you want....

but i DO want you to know that i still love you

xxx, aphrodi 