Thread:This.Is.Me.Bethany./@comment-5750239-20130116012946/@comment-5621472-20130120053954

I really do want to. But the previous years it kind of felt like guys were labeling girls and I wasn't the most fit girl in grade 5 or 4 or 6, I guess I got insecure about my looks and I thought he deserved better. So I kind of grew afraid that if I talk to boys they might think I'm lame and I never took the risk to talk to the guys and I have bad socializing skills.

Now I'm afraid that I look desperate and I'm okay with seeing him and knowing that he knows I like him. And if I talk to him I might prove his maybe theory. So I guess I've been thinking, he deserves someone better, confident, pretty and not shy and quiet. It feels like I took his signals and I kind of mixed it up, I don't know. I'm not sure anymore. Then I gave up on the hard-to-get because I really want him to know it was actually me who sent the message and and we're just glancing to each other...

The only friend I told about the whole situation was the friend who transferred to another school early January so I have no one that I feel comfortable with to talk about.