Talk:Kick/@comment-5463410-20130704040417

I'm getting really tired of this.

Today, I asked who was going to have the only can of Pepsi, and my Mom yelled at me, smacked me, and locked me in my room.

Yet if my sisters do anything, like push my brother onto the floor, they're told to sit outside with my brother.

Why am I the one being punished? Then I was blamed for the cut on my brother's knee! He's a baby, and he falls, and he will get hurt! If my sister made me get a cut on my face, all she would be told to do was put a bandage on it for me.

Does...does my Mother not love me anymore?

Has she EVER loved me?

Did she lie for the past 12 years, saying she loved me?

Guys, I can't deal with this anymore.

I remember one time in elementary school, this girl told me that she hoped a died in my sleep. I knew she meant it. And I agreed with her. I was maybe five, six years old, and I already wanted to not exist anymore.

I've been hiding this from you guys, but...I've been getting horrible pains all over my body. The next day, I'll look at that area, and there is a cut, and bruise, a scar, something there. I have bumps and bloody lines across my sides, and scrapes appearing everywhere.

Am I hurting myself in my sleep?

I do sleepwalk, and I have done many things while sleeping. I know my way to the kitchen, and the area I know the best with my eyes closed is the corner of the counter where the knives and scissors are.

I may be hurting myself in my sleep...I would know if I get hurt while awake. I would realize it. I have pains when I wake up and right before I go to sleep.

Does anyone know what this is???

I just feel...terrible.

Lately, I've been having trouble walking and talking and doing everything. My feet are sore, yet I run. My back hurts, yet I lean over.

What am I doing to myself?