Talk:Kick/@comment-5621472-20121217225911

Hey. This is not Kick related. But I really need you guys' advice.

If you know, I have this crush on a guy for about 9 years. I know. I can never get over him. Basically, I'm this shy and quiet girl, who's not very confident. And he's this nice guy, a gentlemen, not as sporty as others, smart and cares about his education and others. I think he's mother raised him well.

He acts like whenever I'm in his presence. I shift nervously, bit my lip (he doesn't really do that), keeps on glancing and dropping each other's gaze everytime we get caught doing so. I'm so confused whether he likes me or not.

But there was a dance on Friday. Nothing formal just a casual dance. There's this guy who likes me and kind of acts gay so it makes me uncomfortable, but he desperately wants to dance with me but I don't dance because I'm nervous and shy about dancing. And my friends know about his crush on me and kept trying to make me dance with him. I kept avoiding the topic.

A slow song came up. I had immediately hoped my crush would ask me, and I felt jealous of the other couples dancing together. I just stood there, then my crush kept hesitating, he kept walking towards my direction before stopping and turning another direction before continuing to go to my direction then at the last second he decided not to. I'm confused, did he want to ask me to dance with him?

After the whole incident with the guy that likes me. I felt I should confess my feelings to my crush, but I'm having a hard time doing so. I can't even try to wave or smile or talk to him. I'm also scared of rejection.

I'm thinking of writing a letter, or sending him a message on facebook about how I feel about him. but everytime I try, I just quickly change my mind. Well after today, he kind of join our class and it was free time so everyone was talking except for me, the same usual thing, he's become a bit more quiet, keeps glancing to me, he's looking away but I feel his attention is on me as I do with him.

I was so focused on trying to confess to him. He was there and I plenty of time to talk to him but the moment I tried walking up to him I back away and change my mind, he kept looking expectantly at me. Now I feel so guilty of not sticking to my plan, I stayed back a bit for one last try but I couldn't do it.

I really need some advice. I'm really sorry about this long comment.

-Bethany