Talk:Kick/@comment-99.66.144.237-20130613002700/@comment-5463410-20130613030246

No no no no no, did I mention NO!!!!!

When I was about six years old, my grandfather had a heart attack, fell into a coma, was rushed to the hospital, and the doctors had to pull the cord on the machine that helped him breather, leaving him in the room to die. My grandmother didn't get to say goodbye to him, nobody did. The hospital asked for no one's permission to have him die there, so it was completely unexpected. I was devastated. He wasn't even my real grandfather. My real one passed away a little bit after my father was born. This was more like my step-grandfather. I also have another step-grandfather, but I wasn't very close to him. This one, the one who died, I was so close to him, and he was the only one who would play with me, the first one to say good night and good morning to me, nicest man I've ever known. My whole family was depressed and devastated when we heard the news and it felt like life stopped. I didn't understand the concept of life and death, what depression was and how it could affect your own life. Now that I'm older, I know better. I've had multiple people and pets close to me die unexpectedly, but I didn't consider suicide. No, I got up and walked around with dignity as if nothing had happened, hiding the sadness inside. If you free your sadness, it will only get bigger and come back to you, making you feel worse than you already were. I've almost gotten in a deadly car accident, and when I saw the two cars coming head first to my car, I closed my eyes thinking happy thoughts, thinking of only positivity. I've done that during deaths and other tragedies. It's my way of praying: I think of one happy memory that can always cheer me up, one that I will never forget and that I know will come in handy for the worst of my days. You should do it too. It really helps, and it's gotten me over personal tragedies. Believe me, think of the happiest memory you've ever had, one that's impossible to forget about, and implant it in our mind forever for the times when you'll need it the most.